There is No need to Heal

Certain things we just can't heal or heal from!

Not everything can be healed and you just got to keep on walking, and moving forward! You don't have to or need to understand everything. Not everything can be explained. You can still decide and create your own conclusion with what you do know, and did experience and felt - that even if not accurate is soothing and hope-inciting.

It's up to you yourself if you want to spend the rest of your life, the rest of your lifetime, trying to understand and figure out what the actual f*** happened and/or why and how it could've happened and so on. You can also just that it DID happen and that no matter what you do now, or think now and what-not - it still has already happened and is already a part of your life experience! Nothing you say or do now will change that.

However; you also have the ability and right to use your mystical and fantastic imagination and fantasy to create some sort of temporary conclusion so that your mind and emotions and feelings stop bothering you with looking for answers.

It's hard to Stop wondering... but if you give yourself some answer your mind will Stop!

Obviously this answer is only temporary and should be held loose. But at least it's something to keep referring your worried and caring mind to anytime and every time it goes off into anxious and stressful and/or depressing (depths) thoughts.

I think that it makes complete sense and is completely reasonable that your mind is working to be looking for answers. I have enough of empathy and compassion for the system, the mind, and the structure of my body (biology) to understand that it only wants to protect me and take care of me even when it doesn't feel that way.

Our Brain doesn't want to hurt us - but to make things easier. Our Brain also doesn't understand that the constant thinking and searching for answers actually doesn't make life easier for us though. So we have to kind of parent it; and draw the line!